Not properly depressed, like need happy pills depressed. This is more of a general malaise.
Contract ending. Nothing on the horizon. Applying for gigs, getting cv s put forward but no interviews.
The thing is, this is normal and I should be looking forward to a wee bit of time off. So why aren't I?
I think one reason is that the big project at client co, is going wrong. I can help. It has been widely recognised I can help. They keep coming to me for help. But won't offer me an extension. I just don't geddit. It's weird. They will mug me off for what they can get while I'm there, and happily let me walk out the door even if this means the project failing.
Don't get me wrong, I've not got tickets on myself. Others could come in and also help, but I'm there, have domain knowledge, have proven my worth and am well liked.
I only have one person there that doesn't want me there. Because he is the one who is fecking things up, and by getting me involved it means he will be exposed. So while everyone knows he is fecking things up, they are happy to let things ride.
Really not sure why this is getting to me this much, but when you see you can help, you just want to. The sheer and utter stupidity, political wrangling and utterly ****ed up bollocks drives me nuts. Why no common sense?
Rant over. I just need to pull my head out my arse and get back to dilligaf mode. Struggling to do this.
Flame away. Not cut out for contracting, yada yada yada
Contract ending. Nothing on the horizon. Applying for gigs, getting cv s put forward but no interviews.
The thing is, this is normal and I should be looking forward to a wee bit of time off. So why aren't I?
I think one reason is that the big project at client co, is going wrong. I can help. It has been widely recognised I can help. They keep coming to me for help. But won't offer me an extension. I just don't geddit. It's weird. They will mug me off for what they can get while I'm there, and happily let me walk out the door even if this means the project failing.
Don't get me wrong, I've not got tickets on myself. Others could come in and also help, but I'm there, have domain knowledge, have proven my worth and am well liked.
I only have one person there that doesn't want me there. Because he is the one who is fecking things up, and by getting me involved it means he will be exposed. So while everyone knows he is fecking things up, they are happy to let things ride.
Really not sure why this is getting to me this much, but when you see you can help, you just want to. The sheer and utter stupidity, political wrangling and utterly ****ed up bollocks drives me nuts. Why no common sense?
Rant over. I just need to pull my head out my arse and get back to dilligaf mode. Struggling to do this.
Flame away. Not cut out for contracting, yada yada yada
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